Megan's UN-Rock-Bottom Sober Blog

Growing up with the 5'Oclock Happy Hour.
When I was a child, I believed my parents drank every night because they liked the taste of alcohol. It was considered an adult drink because only adults would think it tasted good. I remember asking my mom for a...
If you try to Prove you Don't Have a Drinking Problem --You Have a Drinking Problem.
I tried proving to myself that I wasn’t addicted to alcohol all the time. I would quit for days and weeks at a time to make myself feel better about my drinking. I even quit for an entire month one...
Tails From A Retired Blackout Artist
Blackouts are one of the worst possible outcomes of over-drinking. I would wake up in the morning and have an overwhelming feeling or terror. My heart would start to race and my breath would get shallow and I would freeze...
The Truth Is, I Don't Know If I Will Ever Drink Again.
Monday: (Adamant) Today is the day. I am going to quit drinking forever, I can’t take this. Tuesday: (Holding Strong) I’m doing this. I have to do this. I’m strong. I can do anything I put my mind to. Wednesday:...
Maybe It's Not Your Anxiety, Maybe It's Your Alcoholism
Toward the end of my drinking career, I would wake up almost every single night at 3 a.m. My head would be throbbing, my mouth would be sticky and dry, and then it would begin—my early morning beat down. I...
Screw Alcohol, This Is What We Really Need.
When I first knew I had to get help with alcohol, I was scared to death. My doctor and I agreed that I would try “dry January” and give my anxiety meds a chance to work. We had a follow-up appointment scheduled...
My Sobriety Doesn't Mean I Judge You For Drinking.
Pro-sobriety is different from anti-drinking, and that can be confusing. Friends ask my husband, “So does she hate you drinking now? Does she let you drink at home still? Do you feel weird drinking in front of her now?” These...
The Link Between Drinking and Anxiety
When I stopped drinking, I thought that my problem was that I drank too much. I learned that drinking was actually not my problem; it was my ineffective solution to my problem. Drinking was my coping mechanism for my problem....
Cocktail? No Thanks, I Prefer My Beverages Non-Toxic
Surely it’s a different “kind” of ethanol that is found in alcoholic drinks? It can’t be the same as the kind of ethanol at the gas pump. No, it’s the same. Ethanol is ethanol. I had no clue what I was ingesting...
Dear Alcohol, I Am So Glad We Broke Up
It has been 595 days since we were together last. Some days it feels like yesterday, other days it feels like an eternity. I wanted to let you know that I am doing really well, you don’t need to worry...